Sweaty, I have to leave! 03
But today I eat them. I think a lot of long before some this determination, never turn back! Recently, my mind always appear a picture: in a capacious sitting room there were a happy family, love grandparents, filial son daughter-in-law, lively and lovely grandson. This is how better human picture! But it has a coveted beside, whom intentionally or unintentionally to destroy it, while the coveted person is me! This thought my heart can’t be calm once, I will let you thoroughly regress family, let you enjoy the happiness; spend the rest of the life. So you may find it difficult to accept, so I tell you I leave but also for myself, not long ago, when I see his hair a white-haired, age trace nature’s laws originally is normal, but that day I wonder why suddenly reminded of the Gianni poem: Yang and do not come loose at Xiao Han long bosom hate, holding the heliocentric theory. Offered fu years of Judah will not meet shame white-haired China ornamental hairpin. Ten years I have been considered they without loving you, why should I have so of sadness and resentment? Actually I am for you be fantasy, and destined to my fancies will never become a reality. Don’t say ten years; are more years, again how? I don’t want to go on like this, the lover this role fill me with guilt, although I know that you love me, although I have not shed, I have no choice, besides can leave! Small beautiful never once told me of her family. Occasionally I asked, she is ambiguous, says that they are just ordinary town worker, in her life, can hardly give her any help. “He laughed in my ears, twist, say again not obedient, ask her dislike? She likes to the heart disc charm. She really angry, I will reach apology side smile, her breath, in my bosom laughs shed a tear.
Yesterday was the last time I saw you , I did a lot of you to love to eat vegetables, bought a lot of you love to drink beer, you as usual and attentive outwardly laughing, but you don’t know after you never see me again. Usually you don’t let me drink, always say smoking and drinking is not like women, I what all listen to you, but today please forgive my capricious, last capricious. I drank a glass and glass of a bottle of bottle again, I want to leave you for a moment, and I want to send these meals always continue to eat, I want to let alcohol anaesthetizing self, and finally you take away my glasses. I not drunk really not drunk, I understand that this is our last supper! Finally! You are leaving, I insist that send you downstairs, although I heart already tears torrential rain, but that drops in her eyes round and round tears I finally brimming with no let it drop! Dear, I want you to remember me smile, remember my happiness, and remember we had better. Look at your figure wandered off; I know that door has always closed. Then the little beauty, always let me feel distressed, although know the tear is laughing, but will still took a handkerchief, carefully to help her. She wants to buy the sweetie bracelet with one gold.
Don’t blame me don’t hate me also don’t seek me, all good things must come to an end, and it’s love meal I’ve had for a decade, for me, life is enough! If you really love me, please respect my will let me quietly away, if you really love me, for me, please take care of yourself a better life, if you really love me, for me please treat your wife compensate for my ten years to her unintended hurts and shortcomings and, if true, there is an afterlife, and I’ll I am eighteen of that day of meeting you, then work together sharing I busy! Honey, I’m gone. I pray that you and your family peace and happiness forever!
This book endless talk, don’t let. Finally using poem as end: when you are old and head white, sleep thinking giddy, and the fireplace slumber, take down this poetry read slowly, to recall your former eyes gently, and their dark shadows, how many people adore you, love your youth joy hour, and loved your beauty false or true, only one adore the pilgrim soul in you, love you old face painful wrinkles….
